So I have generalized anxiety. Which means everything has the potential to make me anxious. And recently, I have noticed, that one of my favorite things sometimes, just sometimes, makes me anxious.
Which is great cause I decided to have a book blog all of a sudden and now reading new books sometimes brings out my anxiety. Go me!
This is most evident when I am reading a book I really like. I have to put it down and walk away from it cause it gets to me. And then I have to do something to distance myself from the book for a little while, whether it’s for an hour or for a day.
This was most note-able to me while reading A Southern Book Club’s Guide to Slaying Vampires. That book made me anxious as all get out. It’s because I didn’t want it to end. I knew that if I finished it, it would be over and I wouldn’t be able to read it anymore. I kept having to put it down because it just made me so dang anxious!
I know I can’t be the only one out there that has this happen, am I?
Like so many us, my mental health hasn’t been great lately. I have generalized anxiety, among other things, so pretty much everything has the opportunity to make me anxious. And lately, there’s been a lot to be anxious about.
So I decided to take a day for me.
That’s right, I’m taking a self-care day!
I know I’ve talked my friends and family to death about this on social media because it makes me happy, but this past Friday all the musical things came out. There were two Disney musical experiences and Phantom of the Opera! I also watched some Golden Girls in between my musicals.
Yup, my self-care day was full of musicals and the Golden Girls.
And also cake!
I made a vegan chocolate cake the other day, so I can eat as much of it as I want and not upset my egg allergy! Mind you I only had one piece on my self-care day. It’s a self-care day, not a make yourself sick on chocolate cake day.
Time for self-care has never been more important. If you can’t break away for a whole day, try for an hour or two. Just make some time for yourself.
I’m an ambivert. It’s a fancy way of saying I am both an introvert and an extrovert. Which is just a fancy way of saying that I am both comfortable at home with no friends to spend time with, or I am comfortable out with all the peoples!
And yes, the hubs and I are still very much into our social distance practicing. And so should you.
I have to say, I miss the peoples.
But not hugely.
Not missing people, but still missing them, one of the joys of being an ambivert.
And, because I have anxiety, it is both a blessing and a curse. Apparently, I get anxious when I don’t get to leave my house and do things like go to the movies by myself. And my anxiousness expresses itself through restlessness, otherwise known as that feeling of “I don’t know what I want to do but I do know that it’s none of the things we have in the house and omg I’m gonna go crazy if I don’t figure it out”.
Those moments are usually accompanied by a lot of turning the tv on and back off again, picking up a book only to get bored of it two chapters in, followed up by moments of “I should bake something” only to realize I don’t actually want to bake anything.
Thankfully, I’m also perfectly happy just relaxing on my couch with my cup of tea, blanket, and a book. I love being a walking contradiction. It fills me with joy.
Are there any other ambiverts out there? If so, how are you handling your time at home?